Life Lessons

Well, the kids little puppy Sampson died the day before yesterday. We have had him since May when we moved to the farm. He was a Corgie mix that we got from my aunt. He was just about the cutest thing ever. He looked like a miniture size coyote. He had such a sweet little personality. A couple of days before he just started acting not like hisself. He just laid out by the water dish. He would respond to me when I called him but he would not come up to eat. I thought he was just hot and he would eat later when we cooled off. Well he didn't.

After a couple of days like that I had decided he need to go to the vet, but it was to late. Serenity had gone out to check on him. She found him under the house unable to move. She had brought him to the door with such worry in her face and voice. I went out and I could tell it was bad. He would look at you but that was about all the response I could get.

So I went and laid him down in a shady spot and ordered the kids to go play. I knew it would be anytime. My mind was going a hundred miles an hour on hour to handle it, with the dog and the kids. I thought of how I could "put him out of his misery" but I knew I didn't have it in me to do it. I just kept saying to myself "I hate this! I hate this!" I just didn't know what to do so I just kept checking on him until he was gone.

I went and found a box and quickly removed him from sight before the kids noticed me, crying like a baby the whole time. I made it back in the house unnoticed to only meet Serenity wanting to know how Sampson was doing. Crap! I told her he had passed and her response was "I think youre joking." I told her I wasn't and she just lost it. My heart just broke and I cried with her. She cried for hours. Finally I told her if she would just stop crying she could get another puppy. It helped but didn't make things perfect.

These are the life lessons that I wish I could shield them from. I hated watching her heart break and all I wanted to do was make it all go away for her. Sometimes being a parent is just unbelievably hard, and this is just the beginning.

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What can I say?

I know I said I was going to catch up on my blogs. :) Well, what can I say, I've been a little busy. When I do get some quiet time our down time from chasing kiddos and taking care of the farm, I've been spending it crocheting. It has been a passion of mine since my grandma taught me as a little girl.

Lately I've discovered amigurumi. I first heard about it from @widneywomen but had never really tried it. It looked very complicated and I've never been good at reading a pattern. I'm a hands on learner. I finally got up the nerve to try it and now I am heavily addicted. I believe handmade gifts make the best gifts and these just added to what I could make for my special people.

I also discovered that it feeds my OCD. Dont laugh! I'm serious! I am always counting stuff. Like the orange barrels on the side of the road or the reflective mile markers, just all kinds of stuff. It calms me. Weird I know. Well with amigurumi and crochet you are always counting you stitches. I also read the other day that when you do something repeatedly with your hands it puts your mind in a hypnotic state. Now you can kind of see why I love it so much. It's my escape from reality. It helps me to clear my mind and reboot.

Some of the things I've made lately

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Wordless Wednesday- Big Stick

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4th of July

We had a blast for the fourth. It was a full weekend celebration. We started out on friday in Collinsville, Ok at Sarah (Tims sister) and Andy's house. We had pizza there then took a shuttle to the park. Who knew this little town had such a fabulous park! It was amazing. It was a small fireworks show but nice. The kids in front of us had us cracking up. One of them said to the other that the fireworks had to sick if you were color blind. So out of the kindness of their hearts, they proceeded to scream the color of every firework. Afterward we let the kids play in the park while the adults shuttled back to get the cars.
The next night we went to Claremore Lake. It was fabulous. The breeze of the lake kept us cool plus the view is so pretty. Just before the show was to start, the neighborhood across the lake did a show and it was incredible. After they were finished Claremore started theirs. Best show I have ever been to. There were some I had never seen before. We will for sure go back next year.

Finally, for the fourth, we just stayed at the farm and had a cookout. Grilled pork chops, grilled corn on the cob, pasta salad and fresh tomatoes from the grill. My brother Josh and his little family came. The night ended with him and Tim putting on a small fireworks show and letting all the kiddos run around with sparklers. Overall, probably one of the best 4 ths to date.

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Just Lazy

So I have had so many things that I have wanted to blog about but the fact is I'm just being to lazy. I always replace my blogging time with something else. The weekends are always the hardest because we always have a lot of people out here at the farm. My goal for the next week or so is to catch up on my blogs. We have had so much fun this summer. I want to capture it all for my kids sake. Plus it's just fun.
Another thing, I really need to give my blog a face lift. Right now I blog from my phone cause we are to far out in the sticks to get good internet service. Hopefully soon though. So please bear with me and my eye sore.

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